Presley In Tears As Jackson Death News Loomed

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October 21, 2010 | 9:20pm EST

Lisa Marie Presley experienced the “strangest day” of her life when ex-husband Michael Jackson died – because she spent hours sobbing uncontrollably before she had even heard the terrible news.
The rock star, who was married to the King of Pop for two years in the mid-1990s, had to halt recording on her new album in England and retire to her country retreat because she was so emotional – and she had no idea why.

In a frank and candid interview with Oprah Winfrey, which aired in America on Thursday, Presley recalled the moment she first heard Jackson had died in June, 2009, admitting she knew something devastating was about to happen.

She said, “It was the strangest day of my life; I was crying all day… I don’t normally do that… I was literally cutting my food, eating my dinner crying and I wanted to go upstairs and just go to bed and watch something mindless on TV and stop crying.

“I looked at my husband (Michael Lockwood) and said, ‘I don’t know what’s wrong with me – I just can’t stop!’

“And then, an hour later the knock came and I heard… It was a friend of mine… and actually I started getting texts: ‘Are you OK? Are you OK? John Travolta was one of the first texts I got: ‘Are you alright?’ I said, ‘Is this actually happening…?’

“I was floored, honestly floored.”

The following day, she posted her thoughts about the tragedy on her blog, writing, “The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the L.A. County Coroner’s office for his autopsy. All my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted.”

She recalled what drove her to posting the message to fans: “I was just in floods of tears… and I had a moment of clarity and realized all this bitterness I thought I had (towards Jackson) and indifference, it was no longer (there).”

But the singer refused all requests for an interview about the tragedy until Winfrey persuaded her to sit down for a chat – because she needed to take time to understand her emotions and her feelings for an ex-husband she once felt never truly loved her.

Presley told Oprah, “This whole last year and a half has been spent trying to gain the clarity, because, at some point, I pushed it away and I just had to move on with my life and then that happened. It was like a tidal wave.”

And she’s glad she took time to pick her words carefully: “I understand him (Jackson) now more than I ever did so when I speak about him, I can speak about him with understanding. It’s all good now.

“I was so angry (with him) because we were so united and at some point he pushed me out… There was a very profound point in the marriage when he had to make a decision: Was it the drugs and the vampires or me and he pushed me away.”